About two years ago I met this guy through a family member and we got really close. Eventually he became my best friend, and I didn't even realize it. I was going to him for advise, talk to him when I'm depressed, talk about school, life, love, family etc. And he came to me as well. We never had any kind of relationship because I knew he was married and he was just living day to day. The thing is, he had gotten married a few months before we had met, to a girl back home as an arranged marriage sort of thing. He was fine with his life till he met me. He suggested a few times that we should get married but I shut him down because I wasn't going to be a second wife. So, we stopped talking about it. He's 21 and I'm 19. The thing is, I understand we are both young and this friendship should have never started to begin with, but it did. I pray to Allah to forgive me but at the moment, I just need advise. I've fallen in love with him.
The thing that could make me cry is that recently I dreamt of me having a baby girl, and he was my husband. I have never dreamt of someone outside my family before.
I don't know what to do. If his wife said she didn't care, I wouldn't either. And that is remarkable for me, because I've always been the "Cinderella, fairy tale love girl", but I really, really want to marry him. and be with him. Any advise, please?